A few updates

After a few days of pondering, I have decided to move out of Campus Lodge. Yes, I did tell Millie and Steph initially that I would move out with them. But when the time came to put down "yes" or "no" on the agreement form for Semester 2, I really wanted to say "yes". I was so comfortable and used to my room and home after 1 and 1/2 years of staying here. I was afraid to leave this wonderful place; a place I always looked forward to coming back to after a hard day of work. I was afraid that I wouldn't like my new place as much as this one if I moved. I was afraid to leave my comfort zone. Then again, if I stayed, I would be mostly on my own since Chris would be leaving in July and Steph and Millie were definitely moving. So I was left with a choice: stay on in my comfort zone alone or move out to a new place and new experience with friends? I was torn...

I talked to my parents and my sister. My sister felt that I should stay on and save myself the trouble. My dad said stay and my mum said move if I wanted to experience something different. I guess they also felt that it was pointless to give myself so much trouble since I only have 6 more months in Brisbane. I agreed; I should have moved out at the beginning of this year. So I made a decision to stay on. After all, it wasn't as if I would never see Steph and Millie again. We would meet up and have dinner together, I was sure of it.

I told them my choice and they respected it. Steph didn't say much but Millie approached me later on to try and convince me otherwise. I told her that I would think about it. I talked to M that night and he said that I should move if I wanted a new experience. This had been told to me so many times already. So I went to work the next day and wrecked my brain. I kept comparing the pros and cons of moving and staying. I made a final decision. I picked up the phone and called the Campus Lodge office. I asked if it would be ok if I changed my mind now. The lady said no and told me to send her an email confirming my decision. I immediately got onto Outlook and sent it to her. I was moving out. I felt relieved but sad at the same time. It was going to be hard for me to say goodbye to my familiar place and housemates. In the end, the experience was too tempting. I decided that I was here to learn as much as I could. Staying on wouldn't teach me anything new but moving out would. At least I could say that I knew what it was like to be more independent. At least I would know how it was like to stay with friends. At least....

A few nights ago, 2 girls called Wan Shi and asked if they could come and take a look at my room. Tommy was going to move into Steph's room after she left and they were hoping that their friends who were currently staying downstairs would be able to move up into Unit 7. So these girls came and I showed them my room like a housing agent, pointing out the pros of staying in my room. But at the same time, my heart was hurting. I wasn't enjoying the thought of this girl moving her stuff into my room, sleeping in my bed and using my wardrobe. It was selfish and possessive but I couldn't help it. I was quite miserable after that.

Still I look forward to the house-hunting and having the chance to stay with these girls. It will be fun, no doubt. I just hope that no conflicts will arise because we are staying together.