Missing

I can't sleep! Feeling emotional right now. I'm so overwhelmed by what is going through my mind all of a sudden. Kinda strange though, I'm sure I wouldn't be feeling this bad if it wasn't the time of the month...heh...Just talked to my mum after my exam and she was telling me about all the things she was going to send over with my dad's friend. His daughter will be coming over to UQ to study too and she'll be staying in the same place as me. As a matter of fact, she'll be moving into Chris's block and she'll be Chris's next door neighbour. Anyway, my mum told me that she bought lots of stuff for me, including my birthday present (a key pendent) and even though I specifically told her not to buy me a gold pendent, she went ahead all the same. Hmmph...I told her to save the money but she refuses to listen. Then she told me that she had bought some lo han guo and chrysanthemum sachet drinks for me and was going to ask that guy to bring over for me. But I told her not to send any food items over because you'll have to declare it at immigrations and it would be really troublesome. I swear I heard the disappointment in her voice when I told her that she couldn't send those over. Plus the fact that she went out specially to buy those for me and now she can't send them to me....it makes me feels so sad that I have to disappoint her and all her good intentions have gone to waste. How do you tell her that I really really really really really appreciate her thoughtfulness and I so wish that she could have sent them over because it all boils down to her going out just to buy these things for me even when I told her to keep the stuff to the minimum. The drinks may be cheap items, but the thoughts my mum put into them when buying are priceless. They mean much more to me than the gold and diamond pendent my mum bought for my birthday. Ohhh...I can't describe what I'm feeling right now....it's just too much.... :( I miss my mum....