Heart Going Be-bop Be-bop

Another sleepless night for me. I tried lying down and forcing myself to sleep but thoughts kept flooding my mind and I feel more awake than ever. I'm worrying, I worry about this semester, I worry about my grades, I worry about my projects, I worry about the seminars I will have to give, I worry about my honours program, I worry about my life. I hate this! I don't usually worry much; like my mum says, I am a happy-go-lucky person. But every once in a while, these burdens come crashing down on me and I feel stressed. I know that these worries will come and go and I may have put them behind me tomorrow. Still, they are a part of me and I will never be rid of them. I miss the young me who never worried about these things. Worrying is part of growing up, part of showing responsibility and taking control of your life. Unfortunately, I wish I could be like Peter Pan and never grow up. Then I wouldn't have all these complicated but necessary thoughts mushing up my brain.

I actually locked myself out today. I thought this would never happen to me but it did. It was mostly due to my forgetfulness and carelessness. Thank god Wan Shi heard me ringing the bell and thank god David (the management guy who lives just opposite me) is back from his holidays and could open my room door for me. Otherwise I could be bunking with Chris or sleeping in the living room tonight. My heart was racing when I stood at the door downstairs and realised with horror that I had left my key in my room and had even instructed Chris to lock my room door for me. What an idiot I am! Guess my perfect record of never forgetting my keys has been broken today. Strike 1 for me!! I just pray that it doesn't happen again. I don't think my heart can take it...hhahahahaha....