Thoughts

Ahh...I just love my nightly hot baths. They totally warm me up and calm me down. I enjoy letting the hot water run down me and watching my skin turn red. Hahaha...something I look forward to every day. Obviously I would not be able to do this back home. You would be crazy to take a hot shower when the weather is already hot and humid. I think your bathroom would start raining from the ceiling if you ever turned the water on as hot as I do. Talk about doing a rain dance inside your own home!

I called my mum last night to ask about the funeral. It was really depressing. According to my mum, almost everyone who attended the wake cried, even my mum and Ah-Mah. His death was very unexpected. My parents went to visit him last Sunday and he seemed fine. A few days later, he slipped into a coma and never woke up. My uncle was a good man and he will be missed. I couldn't help tearing a little when listening to my mum talk about him. His loved ones gave speeches and praised him. His body was cremated and his ashes were spread over the sea today by his favourite nephew. I wonder if the boy understands death? I remember not comprehending death when I attended the funeral of my cousins and uncle. Then again, I was only in kindergarden at that time. That was a real tragedy. They drowned in Taiwan when a boat capsized and only my auntie survived. Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if they were still alive. I was really close to the boy cousin because he was only 1 year my senior. He was the eldest grandchild and a boy at that. No wonder my grandmother was so upset about it and even till today, my aunts have to hide all items which will remind her of her son and granchildren. After my cousin's death, I became the eldest grandchild. Sometimes I feel that my grandmother has transferred all her affections to me and it makes me uncomfortable.

I don't understand why people can be so possessive towards relationships. I think it's really crazy when a couple spend almost all of their time together. The ones who call and SMS each other non-stopwhenever they are apart, even if it's just for a short time. I believe that humans are like herd animals, in that we are sociable beings who need interaction in our lives. Of course there are the weirdos who enjoy being by themselves but that's only the majority. Most of us would require interaction to stay sane. If we were meant to spend 24/7 with a single individual then we all should have been born with a co-joined twin. That way, we can really spend all our time with our twin, including going to the toilet and sleeping. I believe that we need a balance between our personal life and contact time with others. A disturbance to that balance would lead to an unstable relationship. Doesn't it get boring and monotonous to spend all your time with the same person, day in and day out? Take some time away from your partner and you might find yourself appreciating your other half a lot more and not taking him/her for granted. Otherwise, you can just opt for surgery to join both of you at the hips. That way, you can really spend ALL your time together.

I give advice but I don't necessarily follow it. Sometimes, the heart speaks louder than your head. But if you take time to distance yourself from your situation and think about it, the right answer might come to you. That's the problem with me; I have too much time on my hands....hahhaaha...

(Stupid blog, I've had to retype this post because it did not publish the post properly. What a waste of my time!)