I had a very "wow" dream last night. It was the kind of dream which really got me thinking and I couldn't stop thinking about it. I thought about as I went to wash up and change my clothes. I thought about it on the bus on my way to work. I thought about it throughout the day as I was doing my experiments. I'm thinking about it right now. Usually, the dreams I have don't stay in my mind for so long. Usually I forget about them by noon. This time, it's different. The dream is putting all sorts of ideas in my mind and my brain is saturated with "what ifs". At this moment, I really want to talk to the person I dreamt about. Alas, it's always the case where you really want something but you can't get it. Just like how you're waiting for bus 23 and all other buses except 23 come along. I haven't seen this person online for a very long time. Guess he's too busy with his life right now. Sigh...

A Zoo Encounter and More

After the horrific day with the uncle, I wasn't really expecting much from this day. I would still be sitting in his car for the drive up to the zoo and I was praying that I wouldn't have to do much topo-ing. I stayed over at the guys's place and was woken up at an unimaginable hour of 6.50 am!! Worse still, I was tricked into getting up so early, being told that we were catching the 7 am bus when we were catching the 7.15 am bus. Damn, all that panic for nothing! We made our way to Chinatown to the car rental place and found out that the place was close!! Ok...imagine my anger when I saw the closed doors. We could have known that it was closed if WS had called them up in the first place. I was upset but I didn't say anything. They might have seen it on my face but I didn't want to go "I told you so!" since I hate it when people say that to me. We had to walk back to seach for another car rental place and found one a few blocks away. This one was charging $55 per day so it wasn't too bad. My mood hadn't improve since we were late and traffic was slow as we tried to get down to the car park where we were meeting the uncle. Then at the car park, there was a long discussion about the route to take to Sunshine Coast. I was thinking all the while that this was just a waste of time because I knew the way and I had told the guys and it was pretty straight-forward. This guy was just so luo suo and would ask 3-4 times to confirm a single point. Fortunately I didn't have to give directions as our car would be following the guys'.

(In case you were wondering, this is going to be quite a long post as I have 2 days' worth of stuff to write about)

We got to the zoo without getting lost at all and then, went to explore the zoo separately. This was good because I think my mood would be ruined if I had to walk with him. Being with the guys' was much more fun and less stressful. The 6 of us went down to catch the live shows first, then explored the different animal areas and took lots of photos. We also got to feed the farm animals and the kangaroos although I got "attacked" by a stupid goat. This idiot snatched the packet of feed from my hands while I was not paying attention. So violent!!! We saw the 7 m python and a few other snakes. The wombats were really cute and we got to touch a baby croc. The sun was so hot though and we got a little sunburnt. Actually this zoo was nothing compared to Singapore zoo. They didn't have as much variety as S'pore but the experience was still a good one. As I have mentioned many times, the company matters the most! We were about to visit the otter enclosure when the uncle called and said that they had finished walking around the whole zoo. They wanted to go up to a beach now. So we had to forgo the otter feeding and drive up with them. Even when we reached the beach, it was raining so we stayed there for about 15 minutes to take some pictures before we had to leave. I was not satisfied!!! I wanted to linger, to enjoy the breeze and watch the waves and the clouds.

At the entrance of the zoo with Alvin and Kit. Taken while waiting for the rest to come back from their toilet break.

The huge tortoise...I think the keeper said he was about 20+ years old.

The bird trainer with a macaw during the bird show.

Just the 6 of us in this picture....how nice! From the left, Darren, Kit, Alvin, Wenshen, Chris and I.

Feeding the little goat. This is not the violent one though. It was much gentler.

My cute little beast!!! Hahahaha....

A group photo with the Croc mascot...isn't the mascot cute? There was even a mascot of Steve Irwin.

Yes yes another group pic...it was real nice that all our group pics turned out really well.

At the beach along Sunshine Coast after the rain. I wanted to stay longer... =(

Look at the beautiful clouds after the rain!

Investigating this interesting shower. Nobody wanted to try it out so I volunteered and got sprayed with water in the process.

Now, we headed back to the city and decided to go down to Pancakes Manor for dinner. A few of us hadn't eaten there before. The uncle didn't join us; they had a prior engagement so they dropped us at Charlotte Street and left. Dinner was good although we were all really stuffed. I only ordered the Bananarama and the rest had the dinner sets which consisted of crepes and a single pancake. There was too much food but somehow, everyone managed to finish everything. Now that there was 6 of us, we had to squeeze in the car and hope that we would not get caught for having 6 people in a 5-seat car. But we were so unlucky. Just as we were around Raven Street, there was a roadblock and we had to stop immediately to let one guy out before fastening our seatbelts and driving on. They were conducting breath tests and WS (the driver) was quite happy about it. I think it was because he had never done this test before.

We went back to their place for a while. It was pretty early though. But we were all tired and so WS sent us back and I washed my laundry since I was running out of clothes to wear. Cromwell was having its usual bash and it was quite noisy. I wasn't too affected by the noise since my room doesn't face that college. Even though I was tired, I slept around 1.30 am. I was busy chatting to my sister and lost track of the time.

I awoke at 8 am to go down and take out my laundry from the dryer. Then I packed my bag, dressed and waited for WS to come. We were going down to the Brisbane Market at 9.30 am to buy fruits and veggies. There was some delay at their house and they only got here around 9.50 am and A didn't join us. Apparently he had some things to do. Besides, he had been there before. The market was busy and crowded. The sun was shining down on us once more. I'm getting more tanned by the day. There was a lot of things to buy and food was cheaper here as compared to the shops outside. I got my chillies, ginger, onions and nectarines. Chris and Kit bought much more than me though. I think Kit went a little crazy when she saw how cheap some stuff were...hahaha... I had my fresh orange juice with loads of pulp again... yummy!!!

We went down to Sunnybank to have dim sum for lunch. The place was packed and we had to wait for 25 minutes before we could get a table. Surprisingly, WS had never been to Sunnybank even though he had been in Brisbane for 1 year now. What a sua ku!!! The dim sum was disappointing. Yes the egg tarts were still superb but the usual food like sio mai and chee cheong fun were lousy. Maybe the kitchen was churning out food too fast to meet demands and not bothering about the quality. Maybe it was just WS and Kit's bad luck...

Once more, we went into Yuen's after getting some bubble tea and bought some more groceries. The shopping never ends! Then it was time to go home. Of course the first stop was at their house and they had to put away the perishables into the fridge since the weather was so hot. Chris and I were so lazy to move and go home to pack our own food. So we put our stuff in their fridge as well and then began to play cards. This time, we played a new game taught by Kit where the loser had to be punished by having clothes pegs pegged onto our faces. That was quite funny but rather painful. We each had a photo taken and it was hilarious. Once everyone had a chance of being punished, we changed the game to Bridge which we played until 6.30 pm. We had meant to go out for an early dinner around 5.30 pm but WS got a call from his girlfriend so we had to wait for him to come down.

Punishment for losing....!!!

Chris got the most pegs on her face...hahah...serves her right for losing last...

Dinner was in the suburb of Darra, at a small Vietnamese-Chinese shop just opposite the train station. We ordered a whole seafood meal with crabs, prawns, squids and shellfish. I'm not a seafood person but I have to say that the food was really good. I even enjoyed the prawns although I didn't touch the shellfish and I took 1 piece of crab. But I did love the crab roe *drool*.... As usual, dinner was filled with laughter and lame jokes. I'm glad A joined us for this dinner even though we had to do the illegal people squeezing again.

An example of the yummy food you can find at the shop.

We went up to Mt Cootha after dinner to relax. It was cooling up there although the temperature was nothing compared to winter. WS was playing this "Bang Bang" game with us. It was something like Black Magic where you had to figure out how the game worked. I think most of us got it in the end.

A view of the city from Mt Cootha...well taken by Darren.

We left Mt Cootha around 11 pm and decided to go to Three Monkeys. WS and Kit had not been there before either. We shared some cake and drinks and sat around chatting. This time, we did play some word games but then the conversation led to WS asking me and A about the kind of BF/GF we wanted. I couldn't answer him. How can you put a definition on a person or on feelings? I believe that love is blind and it could happen to anyone. What is the point of saying that you want him to be this, this, this and this? This isn't like Practical Magic where you can cast a spell to get the perfect partner. I guess I could have just blabbed out some points to make them happy but I didn't think it was necessary. The only thing I could say was that I liked a guy with nice teeth. I can't help it! I do appreciate nice teeth whether it is natural or man-made. If it were natural then I would be envious. If it were man-made then I would be able to relate. After all I didn't enjoy my braces experience although I loved the end results. Maybe this is why one of my worst fears is to have any problems with my teeth. I would freak out if one day I had a loose tooth or cavities. This is something I sometimes dream about and will wake up shivering.... scary...

The car had to be returned by 9 am the next morning and nobody wanted to go down with the driver to return it. I don't blame them because I don't exactly look forward to waking up so early and then having to take the bus home. Still, I felt sorry for WS and said that I would go with him. So I went home to grab some stuff, took a bath and then stayed over at his place. At least he wouldn't have to wake up so early to pick me up and then drive down from there.

We managed to find the place and WS actually left his wallet in the car. Luckily the staff there was honest and ran after us to return it. Phew!!! How careless was that? Since we were in the vicinity, we bought some roast duck, roast pork and char siew for dinner. I also got some minced pork and chicken bones. Then it was time to go home and catch up on my sleep. I only woke up about 5 plus and made some french toast before it was time for me to go down to their place for dinner.

Dinner was pretty good. Very filling as usual and I think we need to cut down on these sessions or we'll all be putting on weight together. I managed to call home and we squeezed in a few card games once more. These 3 days have been so hectic, yes, but still, I wouldn't exchange the memories I've got for another. It's yet another wonderful chapter to be stored away for future reminiscing. At least, 10 years down the road, if we ever do meet up, we will something to talk about.

One Week Goes By Much Too Fast

This week, most of the lab people, including my supervisor, are down in Sydney for a convention. So I went in only on Monday and Tuesday to do some of my experiments and then conveniently took Wednesday to Friday off to enjoy myself. Time flies and I seriously have problems remembering the days I did this and that. For example, I met up with a new friend from S'pore and brought him down to Chinatown but I just can't remember when I met up with him. Was it this week or the last? Maybe I'm just tired and also suffering from lack of sleep. As I said, I took these 3 days off and I can't remember what I did on Wed. Can someone please remind me? Did I spend this day alone or with Chris? Shit this is really quite scary. It's almost like I have multiple personality disorder where I have gaps in my memory because I was "taken over" by my other personality. I know this is not possible but it's still freaking me out, the fact that I can't recall the simplest details.

I do know what I did on Thursday though. How can I forget it? It was the most insulting and demeaning experience I've had this year. We went down to Gold Coast with an uncle of Chris. Her distant cousin was here to study at QUT and her dad and elder sister came down to help her settle down. Since they kind of needed people who knew their way down to Gold Coast and because I know how to read and topo a map, I went along. Actually I wasn't very excited about going to Gold Coast again but I didn't really have anything to do and I would be company for Chris. We made it all the way to Sunnybank, Harbourtown and Surfer's Paradise without really getting lost. However, her uncle was extremely condescending and just plain rude when we went down a wrong turn. I can truthfully say that I did my best to lead them on the right track but I don't think that I can be completely blamed when we got a little lost. The map wasn't up-to-date and her uncle was....let's just say that he didn't trust me and tended to trust his own instincts even though I was the one holding the map and we had been down to Gold Coast a few times already. Like the time when I told him to to straight to reach Surfer's Paradise but he saw the road sign that told him to turn right and the name he called me wasn't exactly nice. Oh it wasn't a vulgarity or anything and I don't really know what it meant but it was the way he said it and the way it came out. Even when he realised that I was right and he was wrong, he didn't acknowledge that he was in the wrong. Also, he apparently didn't understand what "going straight" meant because we told him that he had to go straight down this road for 12 km before he needed to turn but he would call out every street name and ask me where to go from there. "Go straight ah?", "Turn left or turn right now?", "You sure or not?" were just a few examples of the remarks he made throughout the journey and I couldn't take a break at all. Reading on a moving car isn't very comfortable you know.

I really hate to complain about him since he is Chris's uncle and they will meet again. We were both so stressed at the end of the day and we really dreaded meeting him again on Friday to go up to the zoo. Seriously, as I was talking to another friend while waiting for them at Surfer's Paradise, I could feel myself close to tears. I don't think I had ever been so unappreciated and insulted at the same time. I think Chris felt the same.

To top it all up, we were having problems with our friends who were going down to the zoo with us. They were at home the whole day and they didn't even bother to call up the car rental company to book a car for Friday morning. When Chris asked, WS just said that he didn't know. Sometimes, people who are so passive and unitiative really get on my nerves. For me, I like to prepare beforehand and make sure things are all arranged so that there will be less chances that things will screw up. Apparently some people just don't think that way. They think that the service industry revolves around the customer so whatever the customer wants, the customer gets. No need for any pre-booking!!! Definitely will have as long as you want it....yeah right, dream on!!!

We got back pretty late from Gold Coast and I totally had to let down Mil and Steph. It was Mil's bday and I was supposed to join them for dinner in the city. But things dragged on and on so I couldn't meet up with them. Damn and it was her bday and I was also craving for Korean food. I still am...

We rushed home and passed Mil her bday present. It was a super nice bronze handbag with butterflies sewn in the corner. It was really pretty and I actually considered getting the white version for myself but after buying a pair of $60 Nike shoes, I guess I should save my money. We had a short chat and told them a summary of what happened that day. Then I headed down to the guys' place to stay over. I needed to discuss the next day's plans with them, settle the route to go to the zoo and make tuna mayo for our lunch the next day. After such a stressful day, I guess I needed some friendly company instead of being alone in my room. Thank god I'm not the kind to dwell on issues. Usually I get over them and feel better after a night's sleep. I don't think I'm the kind who holds a grudge unless the person has done something really terrible like insult me!

Ok I'm pretty tired now...I'll update Friday's zoo details soon.
Time to sleep since I have to get up early tomorrow. We have the car for another day and we don't want to waste it.

Valentine's Day

Not expecting anything much from this day, after all, it wasn't like I had a date to spend it with. Hence, this started off as a pretty ordinary day although there was a power failure around 1.20 am and it got so hot without the fan that I couldn't get back to sleep. Thus Chris and I went downstairs to spend the time. It was only slightly cooler and there wasn't much of a breeze. However we did meet 2 more girls from Jarvis that also came out to check out the problem. A while later, there was this half-naked, bare-footed guy who came running up to us. He was actually from IH and he wanted to ask about the power failure. Then he went back to IH and we resumed talking to the girls. Soon enough, he brought a few more "reinforcements" and we ended up chatting on the pavement opposite Jarvis. Chris brought out some drinks and this guy brought muesli bars which no one wanted and I stepped on accidently (opps!!!). It's facinating how a stupid power failure could allow us to meet new friends, especially ones from our own place whom we had never see before that day. Well, I just hope I can recognise them when I do see them again, in the daylight.

The power came back on around 2.30 am and we were all really happy. But since I was already quite awake, I couldn't get back to sleep and so, read a book until 3 plus.

I got up at 8.30 am to head down to work. I couldn't stop yawning. Work was boring anyway, I sat at my desk most of the time and read and read and read until at one point, I actually dozed off. After that I had to walk around or I would fall asleep again.

WS had asked me if I had wanted to go over for dinner with Chris the night before but because my internet totally went crazy, I wasn't able to confirm. Plus I was thinking if I would be tired after work and just wanted to go home to relax. However, after I dozed off over my journals, I decided that I would go. So I left work early (felt a little guilty but I was just so tired) and headed down to his place to help with the cooking.

Instead of the 4 people sitting down for dinner, there was now 6 because their housemates decided to join us. The couple fried some beehoon, A cooked broccoli with a kind of milk/cheese sauce and WS cooked braised soya sauce pork and chicken chasseur. The dinner was great even though the cooking took ages because the kitchen was too small to allow 2 people to cook at the same time. I didn't quite like the broccoli but I enjoyed the rest. The beehoon was well-fried, I need to do some practising of my own. There was watermelon and honeydew for dessert. I think everyone ate until we were really stuffed. It was a nice and cosy dinner with a group of people I only got to know less than a month ago.

After dinner, Chris and I washed up since we didn't contribute to the dinner. K mopped the floor and we ended up playing heart attack on the floor. There was just such a chalet feel to the whole thing. After heart attack, we switched to Bluff. This game was a bit slower especially when the last few people were holding huge piles of cards. I don't think I'm cut out for this game since I kept opening the cards when they were true and WS kept opening my cards whether I was lying or not. That guy really has something against me.

We moved on to Bridge but only 4 people could play. Since they were a little rusty, Chris and I let them get their bearings while I taught Chris to play Speed. In case you didn't know, it's a 2-player game which requires speed (duh!). It's hard to explain to without a pack of cards though. Chris cheated a lot. You were only supposed to use 1 hand to put the cards down but she used 2!!! After that, we tried a bit of Bridge which is pretty fun and we caught on quite fast since we did learn this from M last year. So the 2 of us had "mentors" sitting beside us giving us advice and telling us how to play. Depending on who the "mentor"was, as well as the luck of the cards, we played as well as we could although certain "mentors" were pretty lousy....hahhaaha. I think Chris was quite unlucky as she kept getting bad cards. Anyway, once I had played 3 rounds of Bridge, I switched to Speed and taught WS how to play. He was another cheater, lining up the cards so that he could put a few at a time, heh.

Time passed very fast and soon it was almost 12 am. I was hot and sticky from the cooking, the heat and the excitement of the games. It was good that we could make so much fun out of 2 decks of cards. WS walked us home and I couldn't wait to take a cool shower. Then I realised that I had to download some new setup program for the internet. It must be a new thing the colleges are trying to put up. So I followed the instructions and here I am, typing away with the internet.Thank goodness the internet was not going to be down for 1 week like the helpdesk said.

Despite all the fun I had, there were a few things nagging away in my brain. I had had a good long chat with my sister the night before and she gave me some advice. The question is, should I take it or follow my own thoughts? Where do I go from here? I think, either way, it will not be a happy ending for me...

Today marks the 2nd week of my cough and it doesn't seem to want to go away. I purchased another bottle of cough mixture this morning and the pharmacist advised me to visit a doctor if my cough still wasn't cured within the next week. Easy for her to say but I left my OHCS card in S'pore. The cough is irritating though; my throat itches so I cough to relieve the itch but that doesn't help at all.

I cooked bak ku teh a 2nd time yesterday. Only, this time, my guests were different. The new batch of guys after the ones from last year went back. Still, they are nice guys and pretty fun to be around. We had strawberry cheese cake (Sara Lee) provided by Mil and watermelon which Chris and I bought a week ago. After that, the girls watched Prison Break and NCIS with A while I chatted in the room with WS. I think we chatted for almost 2 hours while they were outside wathing tv. The funny thing is, WS was waiting for A because he thought that A wanted to watch the shows while A was actually waiting for WS because he didn't want to disturb our chat. These two idiots!!! I enjoyed the chat since although I have known WS for about 7 months now, we've never had a proper talk like this before. How refreshing to know more about someone new! But I didn't like how he made me feel small and insignificant at times...I wonder if he does it on purpose or not.

I had a pretty good time at my lab today. I finally got to do some hands-on instead of sitting around and reading articles. I made 4 litres of nutrient agar and poured about 100+ plates. I also learnt how to operate the autoclave (very important to know the proper way or you may risk hurting yourself or spoiling a very expensive piece of equipment). I did some streak plates too and was very stressed when this guy came and watched over my shoulder. So I told him outright that he was stressing me out and he said that he would go away. Haha my supervisor also berated him for harassing me! The atmosphere there is just so relaxing and the people are friendly and cheerful. I love going around since there are plenty of smiles to go around, plenty of good-natured teasing and they treat me like one of them. At lunch today, we were discussing about the other Asian girl (she's taiwanese) who's doing her PHD there but really keeps to herself so much that she takes separate lunch breaks and eats by herself. She doesn't interact with the rest and won't talk unless she is asked a question and even then, she gives answers like "yes" or "no". Then my supervisor turned to me and told me straight that she forbade me to take separate lunch breaks like her. Heh I was very happy because it meant that she cared and bothered enough about me to stop me from becoming potentially outcasted and totally anti-social. Plus, today, I had a chance to talk to this very cute guy....whahaha...motivation to go to lab tomorrow!

Internet Addiction Test

I was wondering if I was spending too much time online. Hence I went to look up on internet addictions. Fortunately, this self-test told me that although I was using the internet a little more than I should, I was not an addict, yet. Those heavy internet users like my dear IT friends should please take this test and inform me of your results. I am very interested to find out whether you are or not an addict...heh heh heh...

http://www.netaddiction.com/resources/internet_addiction_test.htm

This ran through my mind as I sat in front of the laptop. I was pondering about what I had read in another friend's blog. As I sat there thinking, one thought led to another and suddenly, I went back to the day in 2006 at the airport where my family and friends were seeing me off. Before that day, my mum asked if any of my friends were coming to send me off. I replied that I wasn't sure who would come except that I was expecting M and Ju. My mum then remarked that M was such a faithful friend who never forgot about me and had also been at the airport with me the previous year. Then on the day at the airport, M was there and so were Ki-ong and Sjai. Strange, I had not considered them to be my bosom buddies, my best friends nor my good friends. They were just my tennis mates; guys I could joke with and tease; guys whom I could feel comfortable with and yet, they were not the ones I would go to when I needed to talk things out or when I had my problems. Still they were there both times I had to take the flight by myself to Brisbane and I am very touched by the fact that they seem to care and bother enough to make the trip down. On the other hand, the ones I view to be my close friends never showed their faces at the airport. I am not upset or angry that they didn't turn up. I understand that they are busy people who have much on their schedules. Besides, sending someone off at the airport is not such a big deal when you will be seeing them in a few months' time, if not a year or so. Does this mean that they didn't care enough to come or give me a call to say goodbye? As I write this, I feel that I'm sounding like sulky child who didn't get her way but is trying not to sound too sulky.

Thank you so much, M, Ki-ong and Sjai...I can't wait till I see you guys again. And when I do, I hope I will take the steps to appreciate and acknowledge them as good friends as compared to what I used to.

Bon Jovi - Welcome to Wherever You Are

Maybe we're different, but we're still the same

We all got the blood of Eden, running through our veins

I know sometimes it's hard for you to see

You come between just who you are and who you wanna be

If you feel alone, and lost and need a friend

Remember every new beginning, is some beginning's end

Welcome to wherever you are

This is your life, you made it this far

Welcome, you gotta believe

That right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be

Welcome, to wherever you are

When everybody's in, and you're left out

And you feel you're drowning, in a shadow of a doubt

Everyone's a miracle in their own way

Just listen to yourself, not what other people say

When it seems you're lost, alone and feeling down

Remember everybody's different

Just take a look around

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
That right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome, to wherever you are

Be who you want to, be who you are

Everyones a hero, everyone's a star

When you wanna give up, and your hearts about to break

Remember that you're perfect, God makes no mistakes

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
That right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome, to wherever you are

Backstreet Boys - Crawling Back to You

Everybody knows that I was such a fool to ever let go of you
Baby I was wrong
Yeah I know I said we'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart, I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

I know you're in there and you can make me wait
But I'm not gonna wait
It's the place that I can do, just to tell you face to face
I was lying to myself, now I'm dying in this hell
Girl I know you're mad, I can't blame you for being mad
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and now I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You will see a different man
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you (come on)
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in? (let me in)
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you

Banging on your front door (darling)
My pride spilled on the floor
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you, yeah
Now I'm crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you

Amiel - Love Song

It's one thing to ask why we break up
have you ever, wondered why it is we fall in love?
can you tell me, do you know what it is your looking for?
Why do we need? Can you tell me why I care?
How is it that we heed the voice that says I want you there

Thanks you've been fuel for thought
Now I'm more lonely than before
but thats ok
I've just ready made another stupid love song

In a single moment you might be perfect
and sit in a window of my life
how much? How much more would I get to see?
What would I strive to hide?
Now there will be no compromise
So take it in your stride, i'll believe it now with a smile

Thanks you've been fuel for thought
now im more lonely than before but that ok
i've just ready made another stupid love song

Look into my eyes, ours was no love sacrifice
For it has helped us to grow
And I'm sorry I know just how far I have to go alone

I've been in Brisbane for about a week and am enjoying my empty house. I don't mean that I don't like my housemates, on the contrary I am looking forward to seeking them again. It's just that having the whole house to myself is a sort of luxury for me since I seldom get chances like this. Now I can put things wherever I want. I can watch tv anytime, any channel and as loudly as I want. I can leave the dishes in the sink and wash them when I feel like it. I can play my MP3s at top volume and watch movies too. But best of all, I can have all the freedom and privacy I want...heh heh heh...

Hot, hot, hot and I can't sleep once more. The fan is at full blast but all it can do is blow hot air around the room. One thing I don't get is why the outside temperature is so cool but my house and my room is so hot. I am actually sweating whilst I sit here and type. This sucks and I have not been sleeping well at all. Please will winter come quick???

I have not mentioned anything about my honours even though I have met up with my supervisor 3 times last week. It's not something I can get very excited about. Travelling to the lab takes me about 1 hr 30 mins including waiting time since the buses don't come very frequently. Walking around in this heat is not pleasant and I detest the sticky feel on my skin. I am forever moping my sweat. Other than that, the people in my new lab are actually very friendly and very kind to me. I do feel a little out-of-place sometimes since I am one of the two Asian people there. Still I think this would be a real good chance to get to know a wider variety of people. The workload for honours is tough. I have been trying to keep my spirits up by encouraging myself with minor things like getting a brand new computer on my desk in the lab with a super-huge LCD screen, getting to organise and plan my own experiments and timing, getting a new labcoat to wear in the lab there, having a great supervisor and buying a new pair of shoes so that I can wear them in the lab. Still, all this seems so pathetic when I think of 2006. Right now I wish I had taken up M's offer to sell me his old iPOD because it would come in so handy when I travel to and fro from the lab.

Too late for regrets now .............................................