Tonic - If You Could Only See

(Chorus)If you could only see the way she loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do
If you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says
When she says she loves me

Well you got your reasons
And you got your lies
And you got your manipulations
They cut me down to size
Sayin' you love but you don't
You give your love but you won't

(chorus)

Seems the road less traveled
Show's happiness unraveled
And you got to take a little dirt
To keep what you love
That's what you gotta do
Sayin' you love but you don't
You give your love but you won't
You're stretching out your arms to something that's just not there
Sayin' you love where you stand
Give your heart when you can

(Chorus)

Sayin' you love but you don't
You give your love but you won't
Sayin' you love where you stand
Give your heart when you can

(Chorus)

The Bubbles

As I was doing my mindless experiment today, a million thoughts went through my mind and I had so many things I wanted to record down into my blog. But when I left my workplace, all these thoughts flew out of my head. Now the only think I can remember from the day is how much I miss the days when I would play with my sister. I loved to blow bubbles. I would blow them in the bathroom while taking my bath, using my own body shop. Trying to blow the biggest bubble I could and catch it in my hands before it burst. Going into Toys'R Us would mean begging my mom for a bottle of their bubble solution. Then I would blow the bubbles from the window of my room and try to blow as many as I could with one breath. I remember when my window and room were filled with these bubbles. It was so beautiful and I loved it. But then my mom would always scold me for blowing them in the room because it made the room soapy and slippery. Still I would blow and blow until my mom threw my bottle of bubbles away. As I grew older, other things filled my mind and I forgot about the bubbles. I was too busy with the internet, MTV and computer games. I don't know why I suddenly remember the bubbles and now I miss them. I want to fill the sky with bubbles once more.

I'm going to buy myself a bottle of bubbles as soon as possible. Then I can blow to my heart's content and there will be no one to scold me (so long as the neighbours don't complain).

It's been a difficult few weeks. I'm mentally tired all the time. I want to run away from all my problems and stay home all day. My home, my room is my hideaway but I'm only able to use it at night, when I'm so tired I don't even read to sleep anymore. So many problems keep cropping up at work. Work's been hard. I'm so busy all day I don't get to touch my computer except to turn it on. I don't get to eat lunch with the rest. Instead I sneak off whenever I can for a quick meal and gossip magazines are my only companion. Then my supervisor sees me reading those magazines and starts telling that I should be reading journal articles. Easy for him to say. I think if he keeps it up, I'm going to explode one day. I think I'm just unlucky.

Thank goodness I have the girls to come home to. At least I don't have to worry about work when I'm with them. Yesterday's movie session was great. The show was so good. Even though I don't think it's Jet Li's best movie, I still like it for the fact that it had a good meaning and excellent fighting scenes. I don't think the Aussies enjoyed it though. People kept walking in and out of the cinema during the show. Also some left before the show ended. Oh well, it's their loss. GO AND WATCH FEARLESS if you haven't caught it yet.

Toe Part 2

I got a shock today when I removed the plaster after my bath. This looks much worse up close. I don't what to do with it now. Should I put another plaster or leave it open to air and dry? I'll put the plaster nontheless. I can't stand the sight of it and it will hurt if I touch the bare toe onto something such as my bedsheets.

Clumsy

Yes it's happened again. I tripped in my toilet and cut my toe badly. Blame it on my oversized slippers, blame it on the toilet kerb, blame it on my own clumsiness. Mantou sent me to the doctor and luckily I didn't need stitches. The nurse was so nice and helped me clean up and bandage the cut. Then she gave me a tetanus jab just in case which was good since the jab could be considered free once I claim it from the insurance. By the way, the doctors here are so expensive. A short visit today cost me $70 for consultation, $10.40 for the wound cleaning and another $10.40 for the jab. I can't believe the consultation was more expensive than everything else and I only talked to the doctor for less than 5 minutes.

Ekka 2006

This year's Ekka was so much fun. My only regret is that we should have gone earlier so that we could spend more time there and the showbag that I wanted would not be sold out. No matter, Milo's working there anyway so I might get her to buy that showbag for me. Otherwise it was a whole day of taking photos, watching the animals and spending money. I bought 3 bottles of honey and 3 bottles of Chai tea. There goes $20! We went for dinner at CyberCity afterwards, meeting up with Wan Shi, Tommy and Danielle. Although we were tired from all that walking, we had lots of fun and laughter and we ate 2 plates of sweet and sour pork. Yum yum yum!!! My craving for sweet and sour pork is officially satisfied. What an awesome day with awesome friends!

Ekka 2006

The time spent with Ju and my sister

My gums hurt. Sore and painful. Chewing is such a chore. Soon I'll be reduced to eating porridge and milk. Having 3 wisdom teeth come out at the same time is terrible. I don't understand why they have to come out together. Is this some kind of sadistic competition they are having? Even touching them gingerly with my tongue hurts. Brushing is something I don't look forward to. Now what? I am reluctant to see the dentist because they charge such crazy rates. Just hope I can tahan until next year when I go back home. =(