Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry

Somehow, this song applies to what I'm feeling right now...
How depressing...............................


Da Da Da Da

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
La Da Da Da Da Da

People are so complicated but we try out best to understand them. I should think that females are more susceptible to this and want to know more so as to show concern towards their friends. So they are labelled as being "nosey" or "kaypoh" and I think, most girls feel that they can change someone they care about for the better. I don't think that people can change that easily unless they truly want to. It's like quitting smoking; no one can do it for you, you have to want to quit on your own no matter how much your friends and family beg and plead. This is why I don't waste my breath on my smoking friends. If they truly want to quit, I can show them support and assist as much as I possibly can.

I always want to know my friends well. I wish to understand how they think and why they act the way they do. Maybe it's something like psychology and similar to how Keong analyzes the behaviour of others. However, this is not possible if the other party doesn't share his/her thoughts and emotions. Of course, I can't be unreasonable and force them to do so. Plus I realize that the more I dig, the less I get and occasionally, the less I understand. I think it's time to stop asking and stop questioning because the more I hear, the more unhappy I get. I wish I had not been so bloody concerned and judgemental in the first place. Now I think I might have taken the wrong step, said the wrong things, thought the wrong thoughts and trusted the wrong person. I don't want to know, ask or understand anymore and I will keep my distance from that person.

Ban Mian Fantasy

I love ban mian...the S'pore version of ban mian and ever since I have had to eat "cai fan" at work and for dinner everyday, I appreciate ban mian (and other various types of noodles) so much more.

I don't like drinking soup but ban mian is the dish that can make me slurp up every single drop of soup.

I love eating a whole bowl of ban mian and not feeling guilty because at least I did not indulge in an extremely unhealthy dish.

I love picking out the ikan bilis and eating them while they are crispy.

I love the noodles which are chewy but not soggy (unless you are dumb enough to leave the noodles sitting in the soup for more than 1 hour).

I love scooping out the bottom of the bowl looking for "hidden treasure" such as pieces of egg or minced pork.

I love the chilli which is salty, spicy and slightly sour all at once.

I love keeping the egg yolk till the last before dunking it into the chilli and popping it whole into my mouth (hence I get very annoyed when the uncle/auntie bursts my egg yolk while cooking).

I love keeping the soup for last (and also letting it cool) before slurping it down.


For those who are not so familiar with S'pore's version of ban mian (aka Mushie and Burger), there are some things you should note:

1. Even though ban mian has become a hugely popular dish in S'pore and there is practically one stall in every hawker centre, kopitiam or food court, not all ban mian stalls are good. I especially detest ban mian from food courts. Personally I like ban mian from the Qiu Lian Ban Mian outlets but not all outlets have good ban mian. You have to do it trial and error and hunt for your personal favourite.
2. As with the varying standards of ban mian, the chilli also changes from stall to stall. I much prefer the pounded fresh chilli in light soya sauce but most stalls are now serving pounded chilli in vinegar. It's not as nice but it'll do. I hate chilli sauce the most; it's like blended chilli with water and vinegar...so gross...
3. Ban mian is always freshly cooked, ie. one pot = one serving...hence it comes to you piping hot and one should never be over enthusiastic aka GREEDY and start trying to slurping down the noodles or take huge gulps of the soup. It might just land you in hospital for throat inflammation.
4. Prepare lots of tissue paper. Eating ban mian is guaranteed to make you sweat from every pore (ok that's quite an exaggeration but I've seen friends dripping with sweat while eating ban mian) and sometimes your nose runs as well.
5. Get ready to run into an air-conditioned place to cool down if you happen to be eating at a hawker centre or kopitiam. S'pore is much too humid and you are bound to be sweating for a good while if you don't cool down fast.
6. If your ban mian is mainly clumped together and tastes slightly floury and uncooked, you should complain to the stall because they did not cook it properly for you (unless you enjoy eating under-cooked noodles in which case you could have just told the uncle/auntie to pour soup over the raw noodles for you and help them save electricity, hahaha)